What’s Your Value?

Lately I’ve been coming across things about self-value.  A week or so ago this was shared on Peace Begins with Me (a small BIG Peace Project)’s Facebook page:

This past Sunday, yoga instructor, Judith Hanson Lasater was interviewed by Eva Norlyk Smith, Ph.D.,Managing Editor for YogaUOnline.com.  The interview was part of Yoga U Online’s Free Sadhana Sunday Series.  The topic was “Alone by Myself: Developing a Home Practice in the Midst of a Busy Life.”  Here is an excerpt of the interview that was shared on The Huffington Post’s website:

Q: Why is it when we love yoga (as much as many of us do, at least) that it’s still a struggle for many people to get to their mats?

Judith Hanson Lasater: I’ve heard this sentence, as you can imagine, many hundreds of times: “I don’t have time for this.” But I think that that’s an excuse. I really don’t think that’s the issue. I think we’re looking in the wrong places for why we don’t practice. We need to look at our thoughts and our beliefs about ourselves.

It has to do with self-nurturing. It has to do with valuing yourself. I believe it’s related to refusing on some level and used in the broadest sense of the word to see our own divinity.

One of the mantras that I like a lot is — specially when things start getting busy or conflicted — what is the most important thing right now? It’s usually to remember myself and what I’m feeling. And that centers me.

That’s quite an answer!

What does it mean to “see our own divinity?”  Yoga philosophy teaches that we are all inherently good. We may lose sight of, or contact with that inherent goodness due to life experiences.  But underneath these layers of experience, the goodness is still there. This inherent goodness exists not because of anything we have done, but just because we exist.  We are, as described by yoga teacher and author, Erich Schiffman, “made of God Substance, Consciousness, Love . .  . creative energy, Spirit, a unique expression of God’s infinite Self-Expression.” If this is confusing or you just want to know more, check out Chapter 2 of Schiffman’s book, Moving Into Stillness here.  It’s one of the best explanations I’ve read on the topic.

As I mentioned in an earlier post, Westerners in particular have trouble with this concept.  I’m sure that’s due to a combination of factors from the theology of original sin to our “what have you done for me lately” culture to, as Schiffman describes, the fact that we spend very little time with ourselves in stillness.  The result is that our self-identity comes from our external world instead of our internal one.

But what if we truly took to heart the idea of our inherent goodness? Our divinity?  How would that change our actions towards ourselves?  Actions that we take for ourselves? This is something I’ve been mulling over since hearing the interview.  I’ve come a long way in valuing myself.  I no longer struggle with feelings of being unlovable or unworthy.  I am better at doing what I need to do to take care of me, rather than doing what I feel obligated by others to do.  But, I can’t say I’m living in a way that fully recognizes my divinity. And if I’m not fully recognizing my divinity, then I’m not fully valuing myself.

I’m not talking about becoming a diva.  Well, at least not the “obnoxious, self-absorbed, I am better than you” type of diva that comes to mind when people hear that word.  I prefer the queenly, goddess sort of diva that goes back to the word’s origin (from the Merriam-Webster online dictionary), which is:

Italian, literally, goddess, from Latin, feminine of divus divine, god

I’m talking about making life choices that affirm my divinity and full value.  Choices with what I do with my time, what I put in my body, what I put into my mind.  The traditional medicine and alternative/complementary health options I undertake.  Would it make the difficult choices/actions easier?  And the easy path more difficult to take?

One of my favorite mantras is “om namaha shivaya” (discovered it reading Eat, Pray, Love — book wayyyy better than the movie).  A simple translation is “I honor the divine within myself.”  I’ve used this many times in both my yoga and meditation practice and it played a role in healing from emotional abuse.  I thought I knew what it meant for me.  But, as I sit here typing, I realize there are depths to its meaning I haven’t fully realized.

This, my friends, is my new area of self-study and exploration.  I invite you to join me by exploring what recognizing and fully engaging in your own divinity means for your life.